I’m so tired
I cannot rest
The thought of closing my eyes
Just fills me with dread
Time shows no mercy
It’s unkind
So uncanny
Tell me why
Do I always end up feeling so let down
Over and over again
I am shown
How unreliable life can be
But I just want something steady
Over and over again
I am shown
How heartbreaking life really is
But I just want a good memory
I am a skeptic
Always have been
And perhaps that’s my trouble
I doubt every good thing
Instead of accepting
Perhaps there’s nothing to it
They say visualizing the end
Is a good thing
So I see a moment of hope
Followed by emptiness
Over and over again
I am shown
How joyful a life can be
But I just can’t seem to keep it
Over and over again
I am shown
How simple it all really is
But I just seem to complicate it
I complicate it
What is wrong with me
I am feeling so broken
Will I ever feel whole again
Maybe nothing’s wrong
Maybe I am right where I belong
I know in the end
It all fades away
